ch-ch-ch changes

Happy fall! Lots of change is in the air for us, as we’re going to move from istanbul to bodrum, trading the bosphorus for the sea! I have had a wave of emotions about leaving our home of a bit over six years, but that means that we had a wonderful happy time there and I am grateful and thankful for all the memories and views and arnavutkoy and now it’s time for a new chapter, for fresh air and a garden. It was talha and my first true place together, and then our furbaby’s home too, and it was cosy and just right. And now we will have new happy memories to create in Bodrum, inshallah, as one never knows what the future will bring and thank you God for all that you’ve given us. And now everyone has to visit us again to see our new place!

I’ll perhaps write more on this, or let it percolate in my brain more. I’m finding it difficult to put my emotions into words. I’ve never been a fan of moving. I like making up a home, and cozy-fying it, and learning a new ‘hood and finding places for my things and where to buy things, but saying goodbye to a place where I’ve spent a lot of time is difficult for me. I’ve been thinking of my places in santa cruz, and then in SF and now they are all mixed in with istanbul too, even though we haven’t yet started the packing and sorting and moving. and the cities and streets that I’ve walked and explored, how they changed once I moved but still were there, always in my heart. Change is a good thing, and I’m excited too, just aso bittersweet and happysad at the moment, trying to gain inertia. It’s about time I did some funhating in bodrum however…

Yet again I’ve been lax on writing, I know. But to my defense we have been busy. We went to Boston and Massachusetts at the end of august for daddy and tomma’s wedding, then came back and have been in cesme/izmir and bodrum since then basically (3 weddings in 3 weeks), so we’ve been away from ist for a month now and then we found a house here just a few days ago. I’m all discombobulated, and meanwhile the seasons are changing, although in bodrum it’s not rainy and wet yet, but you can feel it in the air. And there was a lunar eclipse in pisces, which rules the emotions, so i’m all worn out, can’t you tell? So here’s something completely different!

ps. and go dodgers! magic number is 5….! let’s do this. there’s always room in my head for baseball.

Tchau rio olympics!

Screen Shot 2016-08-08 at 8.39.50 PMIt was a great two weeks of athletic feats of brilliance, heartbreak, teamwork, sweat, tears, and superstars Phelps, Bolt, Mo, Ledecky, Biles, Neymar…everything and everyone! (and yay to Turkish wrestler Taha who won Turkey’s first and only gold last night) It’s so great being exposed to all these different sports and athletes and countries, and cheering them all on. I watched as much and as many sports as I could, which was pretty much everything. I loved it! Sad to say that tonight is the closing ceremony (2am our time) but it will be good to not stay up until 4am most nights in order to catch the events. My gold medal in couch potato is pretty much assured. See you in 4 years in Tokyo, summer olympics! (we’ll miss you Bolt and Phelps, if you truly are retiring!)

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*update: Here are some fun colorful carnival photos from the closing ceremony! I just watched some of the athletes start to pour in but it was late so I didn’t catch it all.

Hello on this humid night, only two days left of the Rio olympics! earlier we were watching mountain cycling and triathlon (those women are seriously hardcore! felt like a wimp watching them swim, bike and run while I was doing my 25min exercise) but later tonight Beşiktaş is back! That’s right, the super lig is starting its new season… will they be able to be the champions again? We don’t have Sosa, Tore OR Gomez any longer (sadface) but we are the black eagles, so let’s do this!!

Also here are two links for your visual pleasure, photos and illustrations, but they have nothing to do with sports.

Not much has changed in 8 years, although at the moment I’m watching women’s 3000 steeplechase. Phelps has been a beast as expected. Minik just started pawing at my feet while I was typing this. Outside it’s gorgeously cloudy and cold and no humidity for once. Feels like fall suddenly.

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break from the olympics

I’m watching some tennis as well as swimming heats (after watching a truly awesome 10,000 meter race WR. Now I really want to go for a run and conveniently it’s cloudy and overcast, not humid for once, but I’m too busy being a couch potato to actually go out for a jog) so I’m not really taking a break. I just wanted to show you these cool old photos of beautiful arnavutkoy, the cutest and best neighborhood in istanbul! I can only imagine how it was back then.

Now back to the olympics :p

Rio Olympics!

The summer olympics are here!! The opening ceremony was on Friday, the athletes all paraded in, there was a crazy good fireworks show… So that means you’ll see me again in two weeks….hehe just kidding(sorta). There are so many athletes (Phelps already won his 19th gold, last night) and stories and heats and prelims and events and it’s too much to keep track of, but it’s fun to try, even with a six hour time difference and only one Turkish channel (thank heavens for the internet!) Right now I’m watching some heats for rowing, with tropical Rio inScreen Shot 2016-08-08 at 3.41.01 PM the background; high rise buildings, sea, palm trees, mountains…

Also it’s my dear sweets birthday today!! Four years ago today we were in London for the summer olympics, and how long ago that seems, but also close. Happy birthday, my turk! <3









a week ago

Just a little over a week ago there was the attempted coup here, and since then thousands marched across the bridge (for democracy? anti-coup protest?) and the car horns blare throughout the night, every night, and there’s a state of emergency now but also the party boats float up and down the bosphorus, people go out to the expensive fish restaurants, little old turkish ladies feed the street kitties and dogs…. life goes on, in other words. However, the feeling of surreality continues in these hot summer days…


this is a low flying panic attack

As you all must know there was an attempted coup d’etat here in Turkiye Friday night. We were at the Bodrum airport when the TVs started showing military soldiers blocking the two bridges in istanbul, a strange site, and it only got more weird, awful, staged (?), scary as the night went on. Needless to say – after boarding our airplane bus two times being told that flights were still running normally, when the news seemed to be saying that airports were all locked down in Ist and Ankara and even that a tank was sitting in front of Ataturk airport (!!) – we did not make our flight and returned to Bodrum for a few more days. We were unable to sleep that night, and it had nothing to do with the coffee we drank at the airport. The president called the people to the streets; the mosques played the call to prayer all night, urging people to fight; there were violent fights in the streets, standing up to tanks; the president somehow made it safely back to istanbul and a massive crowd of his supporters; CNN Turk was overtaken; the coup was overthrown; rumours, chaos…

And then it got even more surreal. So much confusion, misinformation, news, conspiracy theories, truth, who knows, since then, and nearly a week since the events and nothing seems any clearer, except now we are in a state of emergency (OHAL in turkish) and every day there are people driving around honking their horns and waving their flags. This has been going on every night past 2am here since we got back. Minik was very talkative and was probably telling us about the F-16s that zoomed over the bosphorus while we were gone, breaking the sound barrier! I can only imagine.

So what now? It feels surreal because it mostly feels back to ‘normal’, whatever that means, except it’s not; everyone is just waiting to see what happens, trying to stay as informed as possible, not really sure what to believe anymore. And don’t even get me started about the RNC and US politics right now, unless it’s being said by Colbert. 

How about a song instead, Radiohead’s Burn the Witch:

Stay in the shadows
Cheer at the gallows
This is a round up
This is a low flying panic attack
Sing a song on the jukebox that goes
Burn the witch
Burn the witch
We know where you live
Red crosses on wooden doors
And if you float you burn
Loose talk around tables
Abandon all reason
Avoid all eye contact
Do not react
Shoot the messengers
This is a low flying panic attack
Sing the song of sixpence that goes
Burn the witch
Burn the witch
We know where you live
We know where you live


current state of mind

Amazingly, there are only 4 more days of ramadan left for 2016, counting today (happy july/temmuz 1st!) and my mind is totally in summer mode. It’s also still in football mode so don’t worry, esp. after that nail biting Portugal Poland penalty shoot-out last night. Belgium Wales tonight, as the quarter finals continue…

benim istanbulum

My poor dear istanbul was brutally attaclet there be peaceked last night, this time at the ataturk airport, and I don’t know what to say. It’s just awful and sad and tragic, and during the last ten days of Ramadan makes it even more evil… ugh. A bit over a week ago was the awfulness in Orlando, and when will it be enough, when will it stop? When will love win? stay strong, istanbul. Don’t bow to fear and terror. They will not beat us. My heart breaks for Turkiye, and the state of the world. Hug all your loved ones, as much as you can. and bless the victims and their friends and families. :'(

*update* : The eiffel tower, as well as the bridge in Mostar, the Brandenburg gate in Berlin and other monuments were lit up in solidarity with istanbul this night. It’s nice to see but I pray that this will not be needed for any other city in the world from now on, (except for the winning fans for their football team after a Euro match!)

mostar je suis istanbul



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